Woah!! It has been a lot longer than I thought since I have been on here!! Well nothing really that new here, same shit different day! Since I haven't blogged in a while I'll just act like I have and blog about what I'm CRAZY excited about right now!!! About 2 months ago I got a message from my best friend that a nursing facility near by was offering free CNA classes, and gave me the dates to go and fill out the application for it! Getting my CNA is something I'v wanted to do for a long time! So I thought this is the perfect time for it! I went and filled out the application and found out, this program is fully funded by the government! There are no ties to the company for taking the class and all you have to provide is the white uniform (white scrubs), watch, and white sneakers! This is amazing news considering this course at HACC is over $700!! Now the most amazing part is, out of over 200 applications they can only select about 30 people to participate in the program. Since it's so popular they can't choose everyone. Well I got the call that I had been chosen!!!!! I feel so blessed that I am finally getting the opportunity to be able to do this. Now it may not seem like a big deal to some people because the job I have now is basically what I already do BUT, I'll be certified now!! That to me makes me feel more confidant! So with all this good news, I start to panic! Because, Willis still works the same schedule and Dre' is still home with me during the day. Well now how am I supposed to go to these classes with Dre' not having a babysitter?! I don't want to put him in daycare, I don't really know why?! I tell myself it's because I'm not ready but I think in combination with that, I like the way I do things! I know that if he is in daycare they aren't going to do things the way I do/will! So that along with the most obvious reasons such as, what if someone hurts him, what if he gets kidnapped?! See all these things run through my mind because of all the "stories" you hear about these places! But anyways, back to the reason for my post today, I talk things over with my mom and guess what?!!? She is offering to come stay with us while I take my class so I don't have to put Dre'lyn in daycare!!! This is so perfect now!! I can go to class and actually be able to focus because I know Dre' is in wonderful hands here at home! Another worry I had was because of my job, long story short they weren't going to work with me so I could take my classes. So I had to write a letter and blah blah blah but in the end, ... they are going to accommodate my schedule so I can still work AND take my class!!!! So .. that's my most recent news!! I am so happy and excited for my class to start! It starts in 3 days!!! I already have my scrubs and everything, I just can't wait!!! I'm sure I will be blogging about it along the way, just wanted to share my news for now!!!! Wish me luck !!! yayyyyy !!!!!

Just another Tuesday

Welp it's Tuesday so that means, back to work tomorrow! My work schedule is kind of confusing but, long story short, I work 7 days on and then have 7 off. It's not the end of my 7 off and it's back to work tomorrow night and 8pm sharp!! LOL, can you sense my enthusiasm?!? I sure hope NOT because, there's NONE there =) haha I'm a little relieved to be goin back to work this week, just to get away from the house and normal "mommy routine", don't get me wrong, I love my mommmy routine but sometimes for my 7 days it's nice to switch things up for a couple days! But the other half of me isn't to pleased about it. Willis' mom is visiting from MD this week and I'm gonna feel like a total bore!!! lol The days that I work, I literally don't do anything!! I have a very strict routine that I follow. I mean, even when I'm not at work my life can be pretty boring but you get the point!! I guess we'll see how it goes. The weather is supposed to be crap anyways so it's not like we can do much anyhow.

On a more positive note! The living room furniture Willis and I bought yesterday is so comfy!! See, I told you i'm random lol .. but it really is!! I steal Will's recliner when he's not home so i'm just chillin all laid out and it feels so good!! I'm thinking about takin me a little nap while Dre' is asleep !!


Nothing to exciting has happened so far today.. I think I may need to think of something else to blog about, my posts are pretty boring lmao !!! Any suggestions anyone ?!?!

MoBiLe MoNdAy!!

Okay y'all this is my first Mobile Monday!! =) Here goes nothing !!!! =)

                                                                    

                                           Dre'lyn eating his banana this morning at breakfast!

Willis and I impulsively bought new living room furniture today lol this is the couch and recliner!!

And the love seat!!

Another one of the couch, the color is called Aruba Chocolate!!

Here is the man of my life!! <3 As he sits in his new chair playing Xbox =) He LOVES his new chair !!

And Dre' LOVES sitting with daddy in his new chair =)

Caught them both off guard !! 

Well, today wasn't very eventful so there wasn't much variety but atleast I got my first one =) AAANNNDDD,... before anyone comments, Dre' does not usually have his paci during the day. He only get it when he goes to sleep. He had just woke up from his nap and I hadn't taken it yet. I know I don't have to explain myself but just an FYI for the people who were even THINKING of questioning why he still has one! LOL 

Confession!!

Okay everyone, it's confession time lol .. I used to write poems. Not anything too wonderful (in my opinion) but I used to like to write. Like many other things, writing is something I'v kinda lost my way with after getting into my relationship and having a baby. Like most of you mommy's know, after babies come, we have less time for ourselves and the things we enjoy doin because it becomes ALL ABOUT BABY and what BABY wants!! Not that I mind doin that but sometimes I think about my writing and how I would like to have the time to get back into it. So what better way to do that then use my blog for it !!!!! =) I'v decided I'm gonna TRY to do a poem once a week. I can't promise a specific day every week but atleast once a week I will try and post one. I think I'm gonna start by posting my old poems before I try to write new ones lol ... so here goes nothing, hope y'all enjoy !!! Comments and critics are appreciated !!! For this first one, this does NOT apply to my life. I just wrote it. haha just so people don't think I'm talkin about myself!! .....


                                                                           Life

                              She was scared her whole life and never knew what real love was

    He would hit her and beat her constantly, and she thought "is that bad?, but that's what he always does."

      She doesn't know how much longer she can take it, especially now that she is pregnant with his kid.

                    She is terrified night and day but she can't seem to find the strength to walk away.

          Her baby is born and he begins to hit her too. The little baby's body all covered in black and blue.

She finally find the strength and leaves him after 14 years of abuse. She realizes, "I don't love you." She then   knows what she has to do.

           She now thinks night and day - 'How could he do that? Look what I put my child through.'

                              Her life has changed now and her child's too - but all I can say is .....

                                                          DADDY I HATE YOU!!!!!

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I wrote this in December of 2002 so I was .......... 17 years old lol I'm sure I could do better work now but at 17 I thought this was pretty good lol

Disappointed in myself (lol)

Okay y'all, let's try this again lol .. I know I haven't been on my "blog" game in a while. But there have been a few things goin on here at home that have prevented me from being on my laptop, much less posting blogs. Even tho, posting probably would have helped me through this "strange" time right now. But none the less, I'm back and ready to go !! =)

Let me indulge a little on the reasons why I haven't been posting. Nothing like just putting out there for everyone to read and maybe understand why I haven't been around much.

About 2 months ago my boyfriend's sister came to live with us. She's 23 and she's a sweetheart. Well, most of the time lol .. She was living with us once before but things didn't work out for the time being. So she's back for another go 'round lol She is working p/t right now at Burger King just saving up some money before she goes into Job Corps. She, as of right now, should be leaving the second week of October. Don't get me wrong, I don't mind having her here, or any company for that matter, but it's just a little different having someone live with you. I'v never had anyone live with me besides Willis and Dre'lyn. So it's a little different and changes my routine a tiny bit, but for the most part everything still runs pretty smooth!

But while she has been here my little sister was also here for a couple weeks. She ended up goin back home, for some reason she didn't wanna be here with me which REALLY hurt me, and still does, but I just let her go home. I mean, I couldn't KEEP her here, so she went home =( that's a touchy subject for me ... so on top of that I'v also been workin tons of O/T. My supervisor was out for having surgery so i'v had to work extra hours. Which wouldn't normally bother me but since I only can sleep when Dre' sleeps, ... it's been a little more tiring lol anyways .... things have just been a little busier than normal but hopefully now that things have calmed down and I'm back to my normal working schedule, I will be able to post more !!!!!

It's nice being back! I need this "vent time" ..

I'mmm bacckk !!!!! =)

Hey everyone!! I'm back! I was out of commission for a few days. Well, not really, I was out of town visiting my parents and family with Dre'lyn for a few days, then I just haven't had the time to get any blogging done since I'v been back. But, I am back and that's what matters !!! =)

So .. since I missed my Monday Debate blog, I'm gonna do it for today. Here we go ...

------What is your opinion on same sex marriage ?!!?-----

My opinion, .... you can't help who you fall in-love with!! Nobody chose my mates for me so who am I to choose for someone else?!?! I fully support gay/lesbian marriage. Although this may sound rude but as long as it isn't forced on me or PUT in my face then I'm all for it !!!!

I'd like to hear some other points of view so let's hear it people !!!! =)

Have a wonderful day all  !!

Debate

Ok so I have an interesting topic to debate !! Here it goes ...

How do you feel about disciplining your child(ren)? Do you believe in spanking them? How do you discipline in your home?

-I would like to hear what other people have to say about this topic. With the way they teach children in school these days about Child Protective Services and 911, I know alot of people are scared to discipline because they are afraid their children will be taken away. But isn't that, in the long run, making it worse?

Here in our home, we discipline our 1 year old. When he was younger we started with slappin his little hands when he would touch things we wasn't supposed to. Now that he's getting older, we still smack his hands but he does also get an occasional tap or two on the diaper. Growing up, I was spanked when I did something wrong and so was Willis. We were never "beat" but yes we were punished. I personally feel. There is nothing wrong with giving your children a slap on the diaper if need be. NO, I do NOT believe in beating your child. Especially with objects of any sort. I think a firm hand on the rear-end is sufficient. Do we spank him all the time? NO, but when it's necessary yes!

I feel that if you do not discipline your child when they are young, and teach them right from wrong, then when will you? When they are being hauled into a juvenille facitlity or off to jail at 16?! That may be a little drastic to think about when Dre'lyn is only 1 but, if we don't teach him now, it will only lead to the bigger things right ?!!?

I just wanted to get other people's opinions on this subject !!

I think I'm goin to make Monday's my "debate day," lol every Monday I will post something that to debate!!

Thank you all for your opinions. Remember, these are just people's opinions and everyone is entitled to one. If you don't agree, you can say that but don't bring drama, to my blog or we'll have issues !! Thanks !! =)